”Lord, do not rebuke me in your anger; do not discipline me in your wrath. Be gracious to me, Lord, for I am weak; heal me, Lord, for my bones are shaking; my whole being is shaken with terror. And you, Lord — how long? Turn, Lord! Rescue me; save me because of your faithful love.“
Psalms 6:1-4 CSB
This is one of those really raw psalms than makes me wonder, “why did this make it into scripture?”…it is not only in scripture but it is a song that Gods people would sing…But then I experienced deep depression where I would be staring at the ceiling feeling just like this. I was desperate for God to show up, He was the only one who could change my situation, but it felt like he was far away and not listening. From my perspective, for Him to leave me in this hopeless state was against His character:
Reading this passage and others like it, brought me comfort because I saw great people from the past voicing the very thing I was experiencing…and they watched God show up! And finally so did I!!! And I t was all because of His faithful love for us. He was there all along, but the distance I felt amplified my desire to know Him and to see what it is that I was really craving, less despair or more of Him!
God, thank you for seasons of suffering that brought me closer to You! Help me to stay in a posture that desires to know and love You more! I pray that I would continue to seek You above all other comforts because You last forever and every other thing/feeling/experience is so fleeting…it is gone in a flash leaving me lonely, alone and broken. You are faithful forever and bring lasting comfort, joy and peace!
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